Today and tomorrow is Biloi's final exams. Finally, his 1st year level is almost done. While I knew that he would no longer be included in the top 10 ranking caused by his frequent absences from classes, I am still happy and grateful to God for He has given Biloi the chance to enjoy schooling and experience the love and care of his teachers and classmates.
I had to admit, that oftentimes I forgot that he is only living thru God's grace. Sometimes, I insist that he goes to school every morning not knowing his real feelings and condition. I even told Ma'am Baylon, his adviser that I would no longer send him to school next year since I find it useless because of his frequent absenses. But Ma'am Baylon told me not to deprive him for enjoying high school life with his classmates and friends. Besides, according to her, he's good in class despite his absences and that they understand his condition. Hearing this words, I somehow feel guilty.
Well, after his exams he may no longer report to school. Rather, I will allow him to play his favorite car game (Need for Speed - Carbon) in our computer acquired thru installment basis.
He really likes cars....I can't help but just watch him enjoy the race....draws lots of cars in his unused notebooks and drink coffee with milk with matching bread at least 3 times a day.
I wish I could always be with him....but life is so uncertain. That's why I must scold and discipline him whenever necessary despite his heart condition, which he understands and knew the reason... my LOVE for him.
Once again, thank you so much for God's miracle thru the intercession of Nuestra Sra. de Salvacion.
