For a mother like me, this is so painful because I am posting the passing away of my beloved son last May 23, 2013. Until now, it is so hard for me to accept God's will. His 16 years of existence is never enough for me. I hate myself for being his mother. Perhaps, he could live longer if I wasn't his mother. Time heals according to others but I believed that the pain of losing and missing him will remain in my heart until my last breath. His passing away has changed everything in my life except one...to be remember and be grateful to all the people who have been part of making his sixteen years of existence happy, memorable and meaningful.
I am so grateful for all the love and moral support of my family and friends. But despite of it, I still find it hard to move on...and even worst I am losing my faith.
I just wish to say THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE SHARED BILOI'S JOURNEY here on earth.
Biloi I am really sorry for whatever shortcomings I may have being your mother. But deep in my heart, I believed that you knew how much I love you Son! Really hoping that you are now experiencing eternal happiness.
This blog is intended for my son, Roi or Biloi as fondly called by family and friends. "MY HEART'S JOURNEY" will keep track of his happiness and sufferings as he continue to survive despite denial of an open heart surgery, the only way to correct his heart defect due to doctor's fear of just losing him caused by his critical heart condition particularly his RV failure.
